7:39 a.m. - 2006-06-14
PAIN...again
So, b decided to put something on my bulletin. It was one of those things that someone starts and everyone adds to. Ever since m and I stopped being friends I had let b stay on my blog. I didn’t have a problem with him, just her. It’s a long story.
Anyway, I had put as my part of this list: Fuck the drama. I couldn’t think of anything else and just put that in. Well, mister dumbass decides to take it personal and puts: Fuck the people who over react and then don’t apologize. Okay, maybe he wasn’t talking about me and hinting at the problem with his fiancé, my ex friend m, but I wasn’t betting on it. I had deleted her after all the drama and even blocked her emails from reaching me. I have nothing to say to her even if I still want to hug her and say it’s going to be alright. I will get over that in time.
One, I didn’t do anything to her, but tell her that I was upset and didn’t want to talk to her after she got my other two friends upset and one of them is my best friend C. Two, I am not the one losing friends because of my ‘I know everything and you know nothing’ attitude. Not my fault she turned psycho and now is losing control of her life. Who the hell goes to college only to be a stay at home wife in the first place? And I have to apologize? Uh no! I don’t think so! She caused the problem with me and my friends and not the other way around. If anyone needs to grow up and apologize then it had better start at that end because it sure as hell ain’t starting here. I didn’t do anything. If I had then I would be the first to apologize.
Am I being too sensitive? Should I let it get to me? Maybe he didn’t mean me. I don’t know. All I do know is that, yes, I did take it personal and it hurt like hell. That was my blog and I can delete who I want. So there! *pppffffttttt*
I hurt now and I hate that. People are always hurting me and I let them. I need to learn how to live as a hermit on a mountain somewhere and just say fuck it!
