6:05 p.m. - 2005-11-24
Thankful for what?
What is Thanksgiving Day about? Being Thankful? Spending time with relatives who don't like you? Watching those same relatives talk about each other?
What is it really about?
How about being thankful for what we have? Why not thank our god(s) for what we have in our lives and not whine and bitch about the things we don't have or what others have that we don't?
I chose to spend this day alone this year. Why? Because my family is fucked up for one thing and I don't care to spend any time with them at all if I can get away with it. I chose to spend this day alone so I wouldn't have to watch my fucked up family look at me with questions in their eyes that they are afraid to voice out loud to my face. They are much happier believing what ever lies they believe than hearing the truth from me. So be it!
If I could choose to spend this day with people it would be with the people I love. Those good friends of mine who love me no matter how crazy they might think I am. Those people who may think I might be a little odd, but love me for who and what I am anyway. Those would be the people I would choose to spend this day with and they are the same people that I thank the gods for putting them in my life.
These friends have become my family. They are the family I would have chosen were the choice had been given me. They have saved me from falling over the edge many times. That thin line between sanity and insanity I stand on every day of my life.
They are very important to me and I love each and every one of them very much. I am very thankful for having them in my life!
