4:28 p.m. - 2005-11-29
still depressed but then it is just another day...same shit
My furnace works like a champ now and my water heater works like there was never anything wrong with it. I had enough hot water to finish my shower, wash my hair, aaaaaannnnnnnnddddd shave my legs. They needed it, too, let me tell you. I ain't very hairy, but the hair was getting long on my legs. In the winter, unless I know for sure I am going to get laid, I don't shave my legs often. Why bother is my philosophy. If I know I am going to get lucky then I shave away. See? lol
Today sucked. I felt all out of sorts for some reason. Not sure why really. I still should be floating from the sex I got yesterday. Oh yeah, now I remember. It's FREAKING winter outside! *sigh*
I hate winter, I really do. I suffer from depression enough already with out the days getting shorter and colder. I crave summer and sunlight people! *sigh*
And I also hate Christmas. I don't know why, but the idea of getting another year older on xmas doesn't do much to endear the holiday to me. And since my father's mother died it has never been the same. I remember grand xmases (xmasi?) at her house. Tons of presents, of course she always made sure I got two...one for birthday and one for xmas, tons of food (that woman could cook roadkill and make it taste wonderful) and lots of people. Now I am lucky if anyone remembers it's my birthday and I will be real lucky if I even have a xmas after writing that check for $309 for the furnace. *sigh*
I need to do something else besides *sigh*. Starting to bore me! lol
It could be worse...I know this, but depression is sinister and hard to get out of. I might, if I am lucky, be out of it by spring. lol
Ta for now!
